[ he's not going to dignify this logical rationalization with a response. he's going to worry about billy getting hurt and wishing he was there to help him and there's nothing anyone can do to stop that. suck his dick. ]
I'm not trying to discredit myself, jeez.
[ he's trying to explain how, exactly, he's already discredited himself. big difference. stiles-- isn't going to dig his heels in on this, though. it's not that he's so down on himself that he doesn't think there's some small glimmer of possibility that maybe he did have a hand in stretching the mountain ash the way he did - the feeling of pride and accomplishment he felt when he closed the circle came entirely from within - but man, it's just been hard. it's been a year since then. he's tried a thousand different little things to recapture that feeling, but none of it ever worked. all those disappointments just add up after a while.
but billy believes in him, and he talks about how he gained belief in himself, and it's - sweet. he's not sure what he can say about teddy's mom that won't sound weird, but he thinks she's sweet, too. ]
I wish I'd met you sooner. I would've helped you bump those confidence levels up, dude. You're one of the best people I've ever met. Smart and attentive and kind and funny. It sucks to think there was even a minute in your life where you didn't know that about yourself.
We're both gonna eat the bread, though. I'm not gonna let you eat it alone. You're probably not going to let me eat it alone. Start thinking of take-out orders now. Oh - uh. One more thing? I got a card in my bag. The note made it sound like they're - personalized? What'd you get? It's gotta be different from mine.
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I'm not trying to discredit myself, jeez.
[ he's trying to explain how, exactly, he's already discredited himself. big difference. stiles-- isn't going to dig his heels in on this, though. it's not that he's so down on himself that he doesn't think there's some small glimmer of possibility that maybe he did have a hand in stretching the mountain ash the way he did - the feeling of pride and accomplishment he felt when he closed the circle came entirely from within - but man, it's just been hard. it's been a year since then. he's tried a thousand different little things to recapture that feeling, but none of it ever worked. all those disappointments just add up after a while.
but billy believes in him, and he talks about how he gained belief in himself, and it's - sweet. he's not sure what he can say about teddy's mom that won't sound weird, but he thinks she's sweet, too. ]
I wish I'd met you sooner. I would've helped you bump those confidence levels up, dude.
You're one of the best people I've ever met. Smart and attentive and kind and funny. It sucks to think there was even a minute in your life where you didn't know that about yourself.
We're both gonna eat the bread, though.
I'm not gonna let you eat it alone. You're probably not going to let me eat it alone. Start thinking of take-out orders now.
Oh - uh. One more thing?
I got a card in my bag. The note made it sound like they're - personalized?
What'd you get? It's gotta be different from mine.